Monday morning I woke from a long series of interconnected dreams. In one of them I was in an upscale, crimson-upholstered auditorium of some kind. Various real and imagined people from my life and past were there among the rows of chairs as very large coins floated down toward us from the ceiling, rotating slowly as they came. I was very involved with collecting my own stack of coins, mostly noticing the others from my visual periphery where I saw them also eagerly holding up their arms to collect these big, bright falling discs.
When the coins ceased to fall, I evaluated my stack of coins. I was content with it on the one hand, on the other I wished my stack was higher than it was. I looked in the air, anticipating more coins; there were none. I then looked around to compare my stack with that of the others in the room. I noticed one person had, in addition to coins, a small golden statuette of some Buddhist or Hindu deity. I hadn't realized, I thought, that there had been any of those available for grabbing, and now it was too late. I wasn't overly dismayed, but at least aware of what I lacked.
Lately I have been trying to figure out the place in my life that my spiritual practice should hold. Will I, or should I, ever make a grand living as a healer? And will I ever reach the spiritual pinnacle that others have reached? If so, how should I do that?
I don't know that this dream exactly answers those questions. It did not feel like a dream of judgment. The coins were beautiful, the spiritual figurine also beautiful. The people in the room (including myself) exuded joy--not a materialistic joy, but an eagerness to be alive and ACCEPTING THE BEAUTIFUL GIFTS THAT THE HEAVENS WERE SENDING.
I will type that again, because it was actually in the process of typing it that the realization even hit me: we were ECSTATIC to accept what was being offered! I may have evaluated and compared, but even in the dream itself, I was just as happy as anyone else, happy at the sheer wonder of what the heavens were handing out. Perhaps a spiritual practice that I should exercise more often...
